Hannah.18.USA.
she use to annoy me but lmfao
Guys we are just so used to predicting endings.
Movies, TV shows, books, school years.
We do all these things leading up to season finales like recaps and movies we get all emotional as we see it almost over. We throw end of the year parties and sign year books and say goodbyes.
We count down and we know.
We don’t get to know in life. We have no clue.
There might not be time for goodbyes and a party and a slide show of our best moments.
We really have no choice but to live each day like it’s our last. Not like dramatically but we just have to cherish it. Every second and moment.
Believe me I know this place sucks sometimes and it’s never really easy but I mean I guess it is all we have and I guess we just have to make the most of it for now? Right?
I think we could atleast try. That is all you can ask of yourself.
Try.
Eventually you will realize you don’t fit in somewhere.
I remember in 6th grade the school did this spirit week. I was all excited to participate because I was finally in middle school.
The first day was Back To The Future where you got to dress up like you were from an era in the past. I made my mom take me to Goodwill and I got this long, vintage style floral dress that would fit right in with a scene from Little House on The Prairie. Then I borrowed a big sun hat from my grandmother that she used to wear to horse races.
I came into school the next day smiling, sure I was the best dressed. I was so confused when people kept laughing around me. Finally I asked a boy by the lockers what was so funny and he told me how I was a dork, a loser. How no one really cares about school spirits and dressing up. I was totally humiliated. I had been so proud when I walked out of the house that morning.
I became to ashamed I didn’t participate the rest of the week
Eventually you will realize you don’t fit in somewhere.
Night:)
one day i will let you in
This song is basically describing me.
Everytime I’m having really bad anxiety I can put this on untill I get through it.
A few weeks ago I just completly broke down and walked away from campus crying. I just remember I managed to cross this busy street and I tossed my backpack and started sobbing right there next to all these cars going by.
I ran to a garden outside this library and I was just feeling totally numb and alone and lost.
I am terrified of heights but in that moment nothing phased me. I climbed to the top of a cherry blossom tree and just wished to disappear because I figured who would notice anyway.
My old friends could never deal with me when I was sad but I finally have people who understand. They didn’t even say much but knowing somebody cared about me was just the most amazing feeling.
My iPod was going off and I opened it to a picture of Vic saying ‘Darling, You’ll Be Okay’ with a link to this song underneath.
This song meant alot to me before then but never as much as it did in that moment. I got down from the tree and I sat there and cried for a long time with it on repeat while I was surrounded by all these pink flower petals.
And I decided to hold on.
Untill May and then untill tomorow and then untill next week, month, year.
When I saw PTV live finally on Sunday a boy lifted me up during the song so Vic could see me and he sang right at me. I know he could tell i was crying but his eyes had enough hope in them for me to believe that I will be okay.
So please keep holding on with me.
Darling, you’ll be okay.
This song is basically describing me.
Everytime I’m having really bad anxiety I can put this on untill I get through it.
A few weeks ago I just completly broke down and walked away from campus crying. I just remember I managed to cross this busy street and I tossed my backpack and started sobbing right there next to all these cars going by.
I ran to a garden outside this library and I was just feeling totally numb and alone and lost.
I am terrified of heights but in that moment nothing phased me. I climbed to the top of a cherry blossom tree and just wished to disappear because I figured who would notice anyway.
My old friends could never deal with me when I was sad but I finally have people who understand. They didn’t even say much but knowing somebody cared about me was just the most amazing feeling.
My iPod was going off and I opened it to a picture of Vic saying ‘Darling, You’ll Be Okay’ with a link to this song underneath.
This song meant alot to me before then but never as much as it did in that moment. I got down from the tree and I sat there and cried for a long time with it on repeat while I was surrounded by all these pink flower petals.
And I decided to hold on.
Untill May and then untill tomorow and then untill next week, month, year.
When I saw PTV live finally on Sunday a boy lifted me up during the song so Vic could see me and he sang right at me. I know he could tell i was crying but his eyes had enough hope in them for me to believe that I will be okay.
So please keep holding on with me.
Darling, you’ll be okay.
this is the most beautiful edit i swear
Had a good day and got to see my friends:) honestly can’t ask for much more
Had a good day and got to see my friends:) honestly can’t ask for much more
This is my favorite picture of me because it’s the most honest.
Maybe I am smiling under there or maybe I am crying or hiding or scared.
Either way you will never know. Most people won’t.
Hi I’m Hannah and I’m addicted to waffles
I took this Thursday night and this is the first time in a while its not just my mouth that’s smiling. I actually look happy.
I’m sorry, I can’t see that you truly love me.
Spring Fever in 14 days💕
Sometimes I’m really upset
And I really want to give up
But I remember some things don’t get that option
Flowers have to die every winter
And some animals always die giving birth
And people die of cancer and they don’t want to
So I have to keep living for these things
And all that they’ve missed
And all that they wanted
Even if I have nothing they did and it wouldn’t be fair to them to use my option
people say i have changed but they’re wrong.
i am more me than ever.
i have always been this way but i couldn’t show it.
i couldn’t show because they held me back.
but they aren’t around anymore.